Sometimes I feel like a big looser,,when like the level of rejection goes above my capacity and I just want to die,,like I am not that spirital like I was before and aybe I am,,I don't know,,I feel like God has to take care of me like I am big shot or something and I am better that eeryody else which is not true and we are all equal in the God's eyes but still I feel like I am  a good person and blah blah blah ,,I don't know if it's normal or not otr whatever,,,,,,I thhink I ssould just be HAPPY and send myself positive signals like telling myself what  a greatlife I have and just don't want to waste it!