migam every thing about greeny sseems 80% o.k.The thing is he  is kind of loos and a baby and I think "hiz" to some part!but at the same time he is a tall handsome with a phD guy ...who likes me for two years.So let's go for it and stop being a lazy ass.I am 27 years old and have waited a lot which is good but I don't think that I will find some one better than him and I really like him.It's knid of flattering that he likes me this much.I am following my rules in life I think.So I am going for one person who I like and don't bother for the rest.


You know yesterday cold have been a great day and I ruined it.Mentally ruined it.Don't let these days go like this.These days are precious and these past two years have been great.I really had fun and it's true.Come to think of it, he likes me for my personality and for my look which I had shown him in the past two years.So all that just had WORTH it.Financially and mnetally.
The bottom line is I LOVE me.I am much better than I give myself credit for.MUCH better.

pashimoon shodam frencho digeh nemiram.khili ziad,,I have time to go I have plenty of time.

Sometimes I feel like a big looser,,when like the level of rejection goes above my capacity and I just want to die,,like I am not that spirital like I was before and aybe I am,,I don't know,,I feel like God has to take care of me like I am big shot or something and I am better that eeryody else which is not true and we are all equal in the God's eyes but still I feel like I am  a good person and blah blah blah ,,I don't know if it's normal or not otr whatever,,,,,,I thhink I ssould just be HAPPY and send myself positive signals like telling myself what  a greatlife I have and just don't want to waste it!

I had such a bad day,there is a girl who hates me and I hate her and I saw her! and I had a bad bad confrontation in class with John,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,that was ad,,no one wil ever come Ever ever,,the other two classes were full