Sometimes I feel like a big looser,,when like the level of rejection goes above my capacity and I just want to die,,like I am not that spirital like I was before and aybe I am,,I don't know,,I feel like God has to take care of me like I am big shot or something and I am better that eeryody else which is not true and we are all equal in the God's eyes but still I feel like I am  a good person and blah blah blah ,,I don't know if it's normal or not otr whatever,,,,,,I thhink I ssould just be HAPPY and send myself positive signals like telling myself what  a greatlife I have and just don't want to waste it!

I had such a bad day,there is a girl who hates me and I hate her and I saw her! and I had a bad bad confrontation in class with John,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,that was ad,,no one wil ever come Ever ever,,the other two classes were full

There is no need for me to spend 200 dollors like that,I should just buy a l'oreal high light kit and do it myself .go for some high light to match my eyes and some on my eyebrow........it's just 30 dollors!!